RJ these days-- Nov 12th, 13th

 12th nov

Hey Jaanu...

i dont know, i choose our blog to share my emotions, thoughts going on ..i wished i had you instead to tell everything and not this white paper.

Who are RJ these days? friends?Lovers?Partners?Friends with benefits?i dont know...

But what i can say is i miss my J..i miss RJ...zoom calls, mugshot, masti, gossips..WC..pyaar, affection although virtually it was vibing.

Now to ask a call, VC i appear to be a burden for you. Yesterday asked for free show but i didnt enjoy it. Your face said i am forcing you for VCs. 

My punishment is this pain..even virtually i cant have you though i yearn for you.. i miss seeing u, 3 roses, sharing things with u..bcoz i dont feel connected like before. i need to think 100 times to express now. Scared about ur reaction. So strange we are not complete strangers either. 

13th Nov

there is a fear,hesitaion now..

i typed "can i join u for bf, dialed and disconnected..

Posted my bf pic and then felt u even wont be interested, y i need to bombard with things.

I miss our old days..