Letter to BM 2/8/24

 Hey laddu 

Now let me ask some insecure questions 

Conflcting expectations 

It is clear that what you want from our connection and what I want are completely different . I am looking for company and you are looking for a life long companion.

You are always getting responses completely opposite of what you want to hear from me . The expectation of 5 years from now and all is also like a mirage . How you will survive ? 

What value I bring ? 

I don’t fit any criteria of a man you wish for . May be I am just a guy who was just available for you to connect at a given point of a time . I don’t know if AC was around you may not even connect with me . I am saying you would have had a friend and you don’t need me in any manner. So what difference i bring to your life  ? 

Boring phase 

You are exploring my life and may be find it interesting to learn all . Soon you will be exhausted with any channels and may end up bored with me cause you know everything. Once that boring phase kick in will you be able to still stay interested about me . 

Love 

J