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Monday, May 20, 2024

Letter to BM 20/05/24

 Hey Laddu 

Please Ignore the discussion we had. I was trying to brainstorm options of  whether we can stay longer with out getting into trouble. 

I know we are treating each other special and it can be only done with the expense of our connection with our Ms . 

I ate your head today . Sorry about it .

love you 

J





posted by enjoyinlife at 11:21 AM

4 Comments:


  • Dear J,

    I typed bhartha and the replaced it with J...
    I know from sat night we are talking too many things..

    1) ok it all started when u said M mast dikh rahi hai , she going to a party , dressed up well , i aaked for back pic..she is ur wife and i shouldn't have felt anything..this happened when v were talking about ur and Ms some story and u were touching during our virtual marathon..sat what i felt was till now(from jan when we started talking) u were alone and may be i filled the gap of physical and emotional needs u had..now after going there M ll be available to u in real both emotionally and physically and as still u r that passionate for her may be u ll eventually might not need me..so i asked will u still need me the same way and come looking for me.

    By Anonymous Anonymous, at 9:23 PM  


  • 2)sun morning+Then may be this insecurity made me to check my worth in ur life and i m not sure y i used a house to evaluate it..it was just that i wanted to know will J get a house i need if i ask .at that moment i felt ur family is ur priority (agree they should be always) like jo ya dh ya M ask and u ll just do it and i m just another person in a corner (may like u user to say na for M u r not the priority ya imp person,her family is and u r just one among them) .. it is totally fine..may be for me u ve become my whole world now jiske around mein ghumti hoon...i was just trying to hear from u maybe i will do though I don't need anything materialistic..all i want is u...if u cant be with me wat ll i do having a house...

    By Anonymous Anonymous, at 9:23 PM  

  • 3) Then confusion with Ms re...as said with M now maybe i am turning towards platonic slowly from romantic..its like co parenting, growing old together..yest u were feeling guilty confused helpless unsure about wat to do hsbc ya cbre...u feeling u not doing enough for M... emotionall physically..which made me to think re should i release u...so u ll be in peace bcoz for me maybe I can't be just friend with u re shayad.. Jaan ho mera...for a moment I thought i ll break this bharya tag and be in whatever form with u...i felt breathless, choking re thinking life without u..

    By Anonymous Anonymous, at 9:24 PM  

  • 4)yest evening we spoke about who am I..

    By Anonymous Anonymous, at 9:47 PM  

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