Letter to BM 19/5/24

Can I say what I am just feeling this moment .. 

I am dying to hear a word from you.. I typed this and you called me . It was like oxygen for me . Thank you .. 

I don’t want to be this vulnerable and weak in your absence . This is not the plan . 

Need to take you as my fuel , my strength .. not to make feel like a big void .. not healthy .. 

may be it is just a momentary thing, just terribly missed you .. couldn’t even speak or chat to you …  need to refocus and not dwell on this thought .. 

I wish I have constant access to you re ,, don’t want this wall kinda of thing  between us .. it hurts ( atleast once in a while ) .. but it is ok , i will manage ..