Letter to BM 16/5/2024

 Hey Laddu 

It is right that i also feel at times i am giving an impression that i am saying bye bye or go on every time you call me. my bad, it was not intentional.  

May be i am just taking the moments we have now for granted as i am thinking we will have this moments again. but thinking about it , yeah it wont be the same after 2 weeks. May be it has not sink into me yet. 

Was talking to Amma and she was saying that while talking to D she told D that , "anyways the job was hard for you it is ok that you had to discontinue" . Amma mentioned then that after saying that she remembered a story of mine in the similar line ( trying to console). 

Here is the story 

this was when i was like 10 or something i don't clearly remember . At that time Pappa finished his Expat life and was trying to settle down in our village. we had a small boat and associated items such a Nets and stuff. During Monsoon seasons sea will be very rough but we still go out to sea for fishing even though there is many risks to life and properties. So the story started on one such monsoon day and it was raining cats and dogs. i came home from school and found my amma crying in loud voice in the hall on the floor. 

i was kind of shocked as i have never seen her like this before. i asked someone around what really happened  and came to know that earlier that evening our boat had a near miss incident but we lost the nets( which is bit expensive). Now Amma kept on crying on loud mouth and i could not take it. i think i started crying to. But i really wanted to console her. i really wanted to tell something to make her feel better. i dont know what to say. i dont remember what i was thinking. it appears like, then , i went to her, sat beside her and hold her hand and said. " Amma, please dont cry , let the nets go, because i got Tooth decay eating all the fish we got from those Nets. It is ok we loose it" . Amma stopped crying, looked at me and started laughing it seems, i dont actually remember. but it should be true cause, The whole village/people around that time remembers the incident now also and still make fun of me.

i am gonna sleep now 

Nyt Nyt Laddu

Hate you 

J