Letter to BM 7/4/2024

 Hey B 

I need to go right, I cant stay. This is already planned. I have my home,my folks all there. I stayed long enough far from them. Your arrival is bit off timed. so even I wish I could stay, some day in few months I need to go. 

when I said I am afraid, I meant that whatever the look ahead plan we have ( even though we are not talking much about it for now) may materialise, I don't know. May be we need to proceed based on sheer "hope" and make plans accordingly. 

please dont tell that I dont understand your affection for me. If I dont understand then who else will be able to. 

you took dangerous liberties to make me feels how special I am. Considering all the consequences still you made that choice cause you find the choice is worth it. Now my dear, I dont have any doubts on this.what leaves me wondering and bewildered is "will I be able to reciprocate ever in that manner" . will I be worthy of your passion. My Pagal, will I be ever be able to love you enough. will I be ever able to tell the sweetest words to your ears. will I be able to appreciate you enough for the efforts you are bringing to the table. will I be ever able to hold you enough and give you goose bumps you earn for. will I be able to Make you special or even give time you deserve. will I be even able to listen you when you wanna tell me something. 

I really dont know what is waiting ahead. I pray that you have the patience to hold on. hope you dont want to drop what you found even when the going gets tough. you already being tested for your patience and waiting for some one, I dont want to be another one. ok, I agree I am different. I am your guy and you are my girl. I get it. thanks for that. 

yeah, go see your MIL some time. Put that in your list. hope I could be home when you come. 

I want to study, but bit lazy. anyways let me spend like 30 mins on it. something is better than nothing. 

will go to work later. you take care.

thanks for the company in the morning. hope you will have a good lunch. Enjoy

And Yeah, It is a promise that I am your go to guy for any 007 activities. you will tell me things if have to know ( I believe and trust you)  but anyways I can execute without asking any questions. 

Hates and hugs

J