Good Luck My Butter Milk

The moment I spoke to you I felt you are special 

there was a kindness in your voice 

I dont remember when I saw you for the first time 

it could be a pic of yours, I dont recall the exact moment

but the moment I saw you I knew that you are way above my league 

Hence I just stick to what I am supposed to do 

just focus on the work at hand

There was so much going on and I did take time to check you out 

Your DPs mostly, once in a while. Never look at your stories as I dont 

want you to know that I am interested 

may be I thought it is bit unprofessional

there was an attraction but it was just something that

I never want to dwell on much 

Then came a moment which I had to fall back on you 

for support, guidance and some positive spirit 

And you stood by me even you didnt owe me anything 

that put some seeds in my heart that 

yes, you could be some one I am gonna be friends for coming days

still I did not want to take much liberties or consume any time of yours 

as we were all crazy busy with stuff to do 

and I know you have your things to take care of 

I never knew there could be a space within yours which I can occupy 

And in my world everything is kinda settled 

I have a path already set on what I am about to do next 

however I wanted to take you along in my journey as a friend

as our path were starting to diverge

Hence I started speaking to you and putting demands to be my life time friend

started sharing things about my personal life 

I felt I can have a deep connection with you as a friend 

and share all of my life with you 

however I am not sure what kind of impression that might leave on you 

or I am not sure you are even ready for it 

To my surprise then you were more than interested but curious about me 

your questions made me to open up more and express all my fears and stories 

And some where on the journey I got opportunity to  meet real  you 

the mischievous, daring, caring and a crazy person

I knew that there are boundaries which I need to keep 

I am not supposed to extend liberties than appropriate 

however as days went by I got to know that I have other feelings for you 

I wanted more intimacy levels other than friendship 

for the first I realised that relationships are very complicated 

you will Never able to define few of them as they are not meant to be defined

but I knew the feelings are not sustainable and will go away eventually 

I know that the time and opportunity to act upon any such feelings is long gone 

All I could do is to stick around in any capacity I can around you 

whatever I have in this level as a friend is more than a blessing 

and whatever I am receiving and will receive in future above that level 

will be a treasure which I want to cherish that for life 

cause you are a gem and I want to make you feel special 

So dear butter milk , thanks for Turning up like a star in the sky 

you and your affection fills my heart and makes me float in the sky like a bird

I never got attention from some one as beautiful as you 

you showed me that I do deserve a space in the heart of a beautiful soul 

and that I will never ever let go .. 

so even in coming days we dont speak much or get busy 

I will still come looking for you over a chat or a call

to tell you that I miss you 

and smile looking at a pic or a response which I might get 

My eyes might tear up as I dont have you nearby 

but then that is life and that longing will drive me 

to get back to you in real for few minutes at least

to hold you and tell that " I missed you my butter milk" 

I am ready for this journey and I am sure you are onboard too

let us enjoy the moments we have now to the most 

Make the most precious memories so that we can relive them 

in our conversations in days to come or plan for new ones. 

Good luck Butter Milk.