Letter to J..30th june 2024

 Hey J,

Last day of the month and week..

Wat a week and month this was for me..

Too much pain i would say..

A month filled with insecurity, jealousy, forcing to accept hard realities...a week seeking validation, my presence in ur life, priorities and many more things..1st time 30 days away from u physically and also 1st time u not so reachable..

Yes with all these v had many good moments too together, thank u for that...

Good job on all ur hard work..i know i didn't support u as u expected...

Hope u will get well soon and recover..

I should stop validating my presence in ur life.... whether ur feelings for me is greater than u ever felt before with others ...bcoz i will not get answers and it will just cause pain...

Yes 2nd point i couldn't tell as i didn't see M...and i don't want to disappoint u with my words too..

I miss ur letters... hope one day in my life i will also get physical letter like u used to send M like a deewana....

Yes its a month without chi chi with M...yes in this quarter only twice we had..apr once and may once.

With u 18 sessions in 3 months...

J, sorry re if any of my actions or words hurted u..

Its just that i m in confusion about my existence in ur life...ur feelings for me....

But its the journey i signed up for and need to handle myself...

Love,

R