Letter to BM 14/6/2024

 Hi Laddu 

i dont know what you are going through. it is just that i feel a lit bittle of ghosting effect. i dont have any issues. you can take your time. i hope you will find your peace soon. 

I did some work after i woke up. i pinged you right after you logged of i guess. i left insta stories but you didnt see them, i would assume then you are busy tor slept early ( which is good). i will try to start bit early tomorrow. may be at 2:30 AM. Need to do the summary before i talk to purush in the afternoon. 

tomorrow lunch plan is on and i hope we can go but there is delivery of bedframe tomorrow. 

google onboarding related documentation came through. filled up the forms, mostly NDA and code of conduct and so forth. 2 more steps pending but it is not active yet. so probably next week i should have a google account. 

then i felt like writing the below 

i felt numb may be even more number 

do i even exist in this world 

and if i exist am i just a void 

why i cant feel anything 

M said she gonna meet a friend in Saturday and said she wont be available. just like that. hmm that is new. i didnt ask much. i might go spend some time with ethen and grumpy then or meet up with a freind of mine. lets see

hope you can talk to me tomorrow. ( may be if you ghost me then i will put this line in my every letter). 

i was challenging you that you cannot ghost me. i know you can do that. but then it will be such a waste to do so. 

hate you and waiting for you get back to me soon 

lots of hate and hugs 

J