Jaanu....20th June 2024

 Hey Bhartha,

Wanted to write from Monday... somehow got pushed till Thursday...

Dear it's been almost a month now u left pune after 4.2 and in these 28 days u might have seen different shades of me and especially my emotions.

Last 2 adventures happened within a month..this time its a long wait of 75 days...ya i keep counting days to see my man..to be in his arms ..to get lost in his eyes...and to show how much i hate him through my slightest actions of showing love, affection ya through chi chi..

I go to this extent bcoz i think u r my man.. my bhartha as said in real u r not but for me u r..u r not side chick ya keeper ya kuch which is real as per definition but not according to me.

This life i will keep yearning for u jaanu..tho wen u say about cuddling , chi chi with M i feel I cant have those moments with u so mera dil bhar jaye ek baar.

Coming to sat evening episode wen u were explaining about M asking chi chi daily and she ll get hold of u ya u massaging M i felt ajeeb sa re..

I felt i am just another person like a top up to M's plan. So thought ll not talk about ur intimate moments anymore...for that i need to be rigid so I won't blabber anything to u..so I tried to distance myself from u and doing so every minute i died.

J i m falling asleep writing...let me complete tmrw pls...

To be continued..

Hate u a lot,

My jaanu

Hmm..No comments means you have not seen it yet. Let me continue writing today(21st june)

so I tried to distance myself from u and doing so every minute i died. I took every pic for u..each moment u were with me last sunday..just was checking can i bear J detox..can i goto ur friend zone...no i cant..will be hard on u as well as myself...

Reading ur previous letter u wrote on monday i felt like i came back bcoz u explained to me..NO the thing is i never went kabhi..Pagal wat do u think can R be in peace kabhi without her J? Sun wen u saw me at night while in tram i could see that joy,relief  in ur eyes..the way u were saying my bharya...and was pampering me with ummhaaa..u said until u ve that ring i will not believe anything..Yes i was ur bharya, i m and want to be always..

I know may be i am over caring but not to point out but i really felt bad wen u had to go search food on wed afternoon. Just felt something should ve been there for u as u already working 2 shifts...tired..again ve to go out...so was stressing a bit to keep batter or something for u. Even wanted to order some food for u..Added everything to cart too..

Dont know y i was saying u listen to M but not me, by saying so atleast i wanted u to take care of urself..be it food, dandruff ya fitness...

Again i am too sleepy, will continue tomorrow..

Good Night J.

....,........................

22nd june

Hmmm..

Today also J didn't read even though i told him yesterday...was thinking how ur rest of the day went yest...after interview..wat u ate..u went out ya home cooked...did u read ya watch any movie till u slept....i know difficult for you to write wen M around ... also insta stories u r worried now..its ok..but i miss ur letters... generally we catch up next day and update in calls..but now 2 days nahi hoga call..

Thanks for updates today and also the call...i was remembering ur face during tooth extraction..

J whenever u say ya offer money for me i sat no bcoz sirf mere liye kuch nahi chaiye dear..sab humhara hoga...keep money aside of our adventures..u enjoy the world together..ya a small house where v might spend our old days if in destiny ya if ever v get married (aise hi saying as anything can happen with destiny) to stay..i don't know wat ll happen but mere liye sirf J chahiye.. so fund , money will be for us... not for me..

Let me sleep now and continue writing tmrw...srupi y u not reading my letter even though i told u.

i miss ur letters..i know ur situation..thoda bhi acha lagta hai.. thanks for expressing urself saying u miss me in story ..