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Monday, April 22, 2024

Letter to BM 22/4/24

 Hi Kanmani 

Hope now you know why I should not think much. I should have said many things which I should not have told. i dont know how to explain it now either. so let me not try. 

However just one bit I wanted to clarify, I said that you will be getting busy soon and it will be ok. what I meant was that we may be getting into the routine of getting busy soon rather than on June which could help to manage the June situation better for you and me. 

I will let you find your peace on how you want to go with the connection intensity dear. As you said please dont hold back if you miss me, please let me know. But you know what in hind sight I am just telling what I might feel when I go. I dont know. Let me shut up. 

I dont know there are lot of topics which I cannot get my head around. hence let me not dwell on it. All I want is I want to let you know what I am upto and want to know what you are doing and experiencing with life. if this could be possible then I am good. 

All I know is that I will be waiting to hear from you. 

Too much drama towards the end of the day. Again sorry. 

Let me sleep then 

Nyt Nyt R 

Hates and Huggs

J



posted by enjoyinlife at 11:57 AM

11 Comments:

  • Haha..my yest comment not published 🙄 i had said "keep ur sorry with u,poda. Good night"

    By Anonymous Anonymous, at 9:25 PM  

  • Sideline --J, u asked me to say i am not ur sideline but mainline but i didn't say re bcoz i know dear i m not. Your bro sis family including M is ur mainline for u ..if someone come and ask u to choose either them ya me u will ofcourse choose them and nothing bad in it.

    I was trying to say u r my mainline and i will keep u as one..u r my people..my special one...u take whatever u want..J i don't know dear the way my heart beats for u, my soul craves for u , my mind thinks about u ya my body wants u aise i never experienced before

    By Anonymous Anonymous, at 9:35 PM  

  • Coming about priorities duties ya i will never step back from it as i know it needs to be done , hating u.. living in those memories is for my happiness...the joy i get seeing u i can't explain it.. we thought it would settle down right byt but its growing more..

    By Anonymous Anonymous, at 9:38 PM  

  • 10 year our worth with Ms u were saying, i won't deny the fact had great memories, moments with him, experienced few imp milestone of my life with him, his support all the time ..but at times i think isn't it all expected in any relationship..to have peace with it as its a long journey..
    But talking about me as an individual what i want, ws there a gap? Why did i fall for someone else..why I wasn't content...was it for the attention? Attention and fans tho bohat honge ya milega if i allow but i don't want to

    By Anonymous Anonymous, at 9:46 PM  

  • Content/settle down-- with u in my life i m full re...with the memories we built can cherish forever..My soulmate will carry u to my grave within me ..u know dear i get super crzy thoughts like i met with a accident and have just 1 min with me whom i would call once last.. should i call M and say sorry one last time ya see jr and say her be strong ya call u and say hate u, thank u for everything one last time.. anyways pagal thoughts ignore

    By Anonymous Anonymous, at 9:53 PM  

  • I am not able to convey what I meant by sideline /side act .

    Let me try one last time

    Emotionally , I feel the same like you . The wants and connection. But I will not be able to convey that or express or experience all those in real with you. I am not saying that is a show stopper for me . Just saying what I felt .

    By Anonymous J, at 10:07 PM  

  • I agree . It’s growing on us. We are nourishing the feeling with all the effort and time we have now . Testing times are ahead . I hope it will grow further sky high and stay . Not fade away ..

    By Anonymous J, at 10:09 PM  

  • Chi chi better experience with u or not u asked - just like R u like to listen more i guess...i told u dear it was the best of my lifetime .the passion, energy, vibes moreover the hate ingredient made me feel u r mine and u own me poora . And u know J i want this to be my life's best forever so yes R will die with some 4._ version but no 5 at any case..its the commitment i want to make re ...both with hate and chi chi in the test of time..

    By Anonymous Anonymous, at 10:22 PM  

  • Bohat ho gaya abhi..i want my J to go to UK experience many new things of his life...i know i will be with him always... Sorry J, i know i m not ur bharya officially but connection wise more than that(duration doesn't matter, u keep saying its just 3 months v talking) so at times even i will have other emotions like jealousy(i cant experience many things in real with u), insecurity (now u alone so might feel all these interesting, once u go and stay with M u might not feel this intense)..so i act stupid at times..pls ignore... I know u will always be around in whatever possible way... that's enough...but dil mangta more re...such a greedy i m .. anyways..it is wat it is...hate u forever

    By Anonymous Anonymous, at 10:46 PM  

  • Let me selfishly say , please call me ..

    By Anonymous J, at 3:00 AM  

  • I want to hear more .. again and again .. haha .. tell me . Same here dear , I am done . I have you and that is like a whole package . But yeah , if something happens , which is highly unlikely , you will know . I am not looking anyways .

    By Anonymous J, at 6:52 AM  

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