Letter to BM 16/4/2024
Hey B
Nutloose : To whatever extend it is loose now. please keep it there. I dont want you to loose your sanity. what you are doing already is border line madness. please make sure you enjoy what you are doing.
Sorry: I know I wont be doing things to keep you happy but I know I will do or say insensitive things to make you mad. You are my most special person. I dont want you to be feel down dear, as I said this was supposed to happen some time anyways
Interview : Good luck dear. I hope and pray they will come back with good news. I dont know whether you are ready for a change but then if it is a good then why not.
was Mad : I dont know I find myself bit irritated on the call. I Need to work on it. I can sense it when I put some pressure on my voice that I am not thinking and just reacting to the situation. stupid I wanted to vent and you were bringing "pushing" into the discussion. anyways it kinda lightened me up. thanks.
Feeling Numb: I dont feel much excitement now looking at the days ahead. it could be that I have this realisation that I will going away for real leaving R , Singapore and my loneliness.
Chats : long intertwining conversations between two minds, reading it allow me to walk through the very fabric of your connection. How it got forged now I am knowing, how it evolved may be I will know as I progress. taking it slow for now.
it is late now.
will go sleep now
Hates and Hugs
J
posted by enjoyinlife at
2:04 PM
12 Comments:
Hmmmm...
I checked twice the blog...no letter yet..
Let me start drafting mine till then
J, my love congratulations dear... finally the wait is over ...i know how long u ve waited like from last year u were looking to move to UK..not only that this google itself took around 2 months...i was with u from the screening till u got this offer today..so i know the wait ..as i was with u from beginning wrt google just felt u could ve spilled the news to me 1st... sorry re if i have hurt u with my words..
I know how special i m to u...i m ok if i m one among other specials too ..i understand they r with u from many years ..unka hakh banta hai..i came now few days ago .so no competition here or anything like whom u choose..u made me feel special in many of ur acts ..u eyes says it all what i mean to u..
R ko impress karne ke liye Google job zaroori nahi..R will hate u always for who u r..in ur thick and thins... but yes i really felt so so good...to hear that...J, Senior Program manager at Google UK..my love... wish u many more success in life...u deserve every bit of it..
Now u leaving to UK many things will change..i m happy u ll also have ur own House..ur people around...ethan, grumpy and all...ya i know even i ll be there in ur thoughts and u ll try to find me in everything (sunscreen, watch, chai, whatsapp, shower ya looking at Apple 😀) and i ll get hiccups.. don't worry R will wait for my turn to see u..i don't want u in friendzone...u r my love... be my love forever..
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Anonymous, at 2:34 PM
R gave interview after long, wasn't prepared... Let's see..i spanked jr twice now(she did something to M with her hand and he got hurt near hamstring..he was in sleep and shouted tho i got mad at her ..it was unintentional but she didn't watch out...hmmm..i need to calm down and shouldn't react immediately... nothing happened to M compared to how he shouted with pain..may be was in sleep so he did..
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Anonymous, at 2:35 PM
Hmmmm... commented wat i drafted without reading urs...let me read urs now...wait 1 more thing i wanted to tell
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Anonymous, at 2:36 PM
I wish I get to see you for real like this as my bharya , for now let me assume it is for real .. 1st thing I will do is to do the touch your face and do the knuckle breaking thing to make sure there is no drishti with my love
. I want to go pray with you and pray just that my beauty will always be happy and smiling like this and I get to see it always And I want to be reason for her smile .
I want to give a look to you as if I want to eat you after may be a wink and enjoy the smile in your face or take a punch from you .. I want to say that you look so beautiful.. I want to pinch your perfect nose a bit .
Just look no one is around and steal a kiss if possible ..
I want to say , can I stay home today and not go outside to have fun with you ..
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Anonymous, at 2:37 PM
Let my J's 1st poem for this wife be here
Rituals ke saath shaadi karte hai tho shayad officially wife bante hai re... but shaadi na karne se kuch farak nahi hai re..i ve submitted my mind, heart, soul and body to u utna hi ..jitna a wife does ... maybe more than that.....so i say hakh hai tumhara..take liberty..u own me....bas officially hakh nahi jata sakte ho..only in our duniya u can..it is wat it is for everyone's sake ..kya kare abhi....
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Anonymous, at 2:38 PM
And we were talking about new adventures ya past relationship too today and 2 days ago also ..new adventures tho mujhe kabhi nahi chahiye...u don't ve any restrictions be it real ya in ur place...i m talking about me ..when i said with AC i can't kill ya chi chi kabhi i am assuming now its just like sneha i want to be with him...i feel i m committed to u re.. don't feel like thinking kuch aur..so i told ek baar milke check karna hai mujhe..my feelings these days after SG trip reality mein bhi same hai kya...my tattoo is like my wedding band with J😀
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Anonymous, at 2:48 PM
Romantic version : ( just the eyes) your eyes my love , you know I used to avoid to look at the screen during zoom calls , I literally used to look down cause if i look at the screen and start talking may be I would have lost it . I just felt your eyes are looking in to my soul . If I just look at it again I might get frozen in a time frame and I will be stuck . Those eyes , we call it undakannu (big eyes ) gives me hormone blasts and makes my heart beat faster everytime and hence the salute ,else where all the extra blood will go . I have seen different emotions in those eyes , hate wala , hurt wala , chi chi wala , kindness wala , excitement wala , anxiety wala .. your eyes emote on it own . Looking at your eyes are looking at a black hole , I don’t know what is beyond .. I think it absorbs everything, my fears , my thoughts, my worries .. looking at your eyes makes me brave , makes me and tell me that I am special to enjoy such emotions from those eyes ..
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Anonymous, at 3:01 PM
Seeing romantic side of my bharta... enjoying it
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Anonymous, at 3:01 PM
Again i m not promising anything here..bcoz i thought i will never sleep with anyone apart from M, still i did...i thought AC and his chats will be buried with me only, still i disclosed it. So i don't know what is it with u.. with u i m content re and i truly believe u r my soulmate and will remain one always
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Anonymous, at 3:05 PM
You have some energy or aura around you dear I think it is augmented by your high forehead and your eyes . They bring in power to you to capture attention. Eyes tell that you are brave at the same time you are kind . But then your lips and chin give you away , thus deliver a contrasting message that you are sweet and adorable . Each part brings in a different texture to your face and helps to setup your physical personality .. my take from a neutral , unromantic perspective
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Anonymous, at 3:20 PM
R about new adventures , I don’t want to be like another D like figure to stop you from having other connections. I know it took lot of passion and energy and courage to connect with me . I just wonder you can engage in this level again with any one . However if it happens I will be happy for you . Again your past with AC is part of your life already and I don’t have any comments on it . It’s your life my love , yours to live and experience it . I am here to witness and walk with you .
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Anonymous, at 8:14 PM
However if it happens will be happy for you.. someone saying this ..hmmmm..i don't want to be..i know u not stopping...i am content with the memories i got this life ..its my choice...
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