Letter to B< 14/4/2024

 Hey My Laddu 

Some times to love some one .. you must be a stranger ( to that person) .. ( I don’t know it makes sense but I guess it is true ) .. saw it in insta

Ambition 

I never had any ambition in my life( yeah I had one until my 10th grade but I completely dropped it ) 

I want to share a stupid story from long time ago . 

I had an opportunity to give an introduction in front of the entire batch during my first onboarding ( my first job ).  Almost 60 odd batch mates Including the company GM was present .The HR who was  running the orientation session gave us a challenge , all come to the front and introduce your self and try to do it in a unique way as possible . 

I don’t know I was a complete joker then ( now I restrict my impulsiveness a lot) . People starting at the front row started introducing themselves, normal talk , name, from here etc . I was sitting at the back row and enough time to think about what I need to say. 

Here is what I told eventually 

Hi All , I have a name , I didn’t choose it . I was chosen by my brother . People around me started calling it too  and hence that happened to be my name . The name is jipson Antony . 

I didn’t had any control where my birth and I was born in a village near Trivandrum Kerala and it happened to be my home town . 

I didn’t had any particular ambition in any life . I went ahead with whatever direction given to me by people around me  and Happened to go study electrical and electronics engineering in Tamilnadu .

I tried my best in studying gave multiple interviews and finally ended up clearing L&T interview  and hence this happened to be my first job . 

All along my life everything just happened around me and I didnt had any control on it . Moving forward I want to take control and put some definite direction in my life . Rather than things happening around me I want to make decisions to choose things in my life . 

I don’t know whether my GM like the speech but my batch mates liked it . RB that time used to call me “Happened” cause of the above speech . 

Why I came up with above story cause  I asked about your ambition and I didn’t get a proper answer(career wise)  . I don’t want to get naggy to press you again to ask . May be you don’t have specific goal just like me . 

I am also thinking what did I achieved in particular which enables me to push you or even guide you . I am just another guy throwing everything he got, at a problem he is trying to solve on a daily basis . You are also doing the same . Everyday there is a new problem and we go solve them . Ambition / goal and all I don’t know may be over rated . An individual can be successful without one . 

But at the same time is it not good have some goal to work towards , to become an SME on something . 

Anyways, I am pretty sure you have it sorted for now . I will leave you to explore it yourself. . Do let me know if I got this wrong. 

speaking of motivation and motivator, you may need to motivate yourself for now and stay focussed. God Bless. 

I saw the chewing gum in the trouser pocket and I had put it for washing before . I tried to eat one but its not good. 

but it brought lot of memories . hmm.. Thank you. eating one from your mouth was special. wanna try again. 

chalo , i will get some sleep 

and yeah you are my freind but your other freinds dont know how you taste like ( I heard this in a song I guess) 

Hugs and kills( goose bumps too) 

J